When words are inadequate to express your love
SAY IT WITH YOUR HEART
Monday, October 29, 2012
Thursday, October 25, 2012
A NEW BEGINNING - 3
Do you believe in destiny? Do you think that no matter what
we think and do, there is a “Divine Plan” for us to fulfill. Yes, we have free
will, but some events in our life are meant to be, and they will happen when
their time has come.
My meeting this man was meant to be. I had dreams about him
long before I met him. Of course, I did not know who my dreams were announcing,
but I knew that sooner or later he would show up in my life.
The other “event” which was part of the “Divine Plan” was
that this man would end up living with me, in my tiny apartment. Oh! He did not
want to!! He tried many different alleys, but they all failed and at the end,
he had no choice, but come to live with me. To me, this was a sign that a
Higher Power was in charge, and we had to comply.
This was going to be an experience that neither of us was
prepared for. Our relationship, so far, is based on a loving friendship, a mutual
respect for each other and is purely platonic. How to accommodate the need for
space and isolation that he requires (and so do I) in this small New York apartment, pompously called a
one-bedroom, when there is no wall separating the living room from the sleeping
alcove!! We had to use our imagination and move things around to create some
sort of separation that would allow some privacy for both of us.
We managed, and started to get used to this temporary
arrangement. We are both learning how to adapt to a new situation and get to
know each other better. I know it is difficult for him because his spiritual
journey requires time alone, space and silence. As for me, my feelings for him
became stronger and stronger, creating a conflict in our respective goals. I
had to learn how to control my thoughts (which he picked up very easily!!) so
as not to interfere in his field.
Now that we live under the same roof, his influence in my
life is even more prominent! He takes very seriously his role as a teacher for
me, showing me new ways of living my physical life as well as my behavior in
general. Every day I make progress, growing and feeling better in my body and
mind. He improves my life in every way and I hope I help him in his search for
perfection, as well as his work which requires my skills.
Where is this going to lead? I don’t want to speculate and
leave it to God to decide. After all, He/She put us in this tight situation!!
Sunday, October 14, 2012
A LIFE LONG DREAM
When a life long dream is about to come true,
it's magical, impossible to define.
The emotion is so deep that the only way to express it is to cry...
Tuesday, October 09, 2012
A NEW BEGINNING - cont.
A NEW BEGINNING – cont.
When he came into my life, I was a shadow of myself. My body
was aching everywhere for lack of exercise, I had gained a lot of weight and it
felt very uncomfortable. I was in limbo, waiting for the 5th
dimension to materialize hoping I would have a better and more fulfilling life
there.
I was in a relationship with a man for a very long time, but
this relationship had ceased to enhance my life. I stayed in it out of boredom
and habit, like a bad addiction. I was not “unhappy”, no; I was resigned to
this mediocre life and accepted it as my fate, my “karma”, hoping it would
finally end with the upcoming new cycle, the New Earth we are all waiting for.
My spiritual journey had stopped when I met this man who is the opposite of
what I should have aimed for. Why did I stay so long with him? I don’t know. We
can always find reasons and justifications to our decisions, and they are all
subjective, false, because we know so well how to lie to ourselves.
And then it happened. This new man comes into my life. He is
younger than me, handsome, charismatic, and, above all, highly spiritual. He is
on a journey that started for him when he was a child. Right from the start, he
decided to be my “mentor”, to teach me how to live my life, how to walk every
day and loosen my aching muscles, how to meditate and activate the light
within. He offered me his friendship and unconditional love. He told me that we were connected through the
heart. I knew he was right, because I recognized him when he first came to my
house. There was an unmistakable familiarity. Our souls knew each other! We had
met before, in other lives, and here and now, we had to continue what we had
started somewhere else. There was a “soul contract” we had to fulfill.He came to see me regularly, taking me to the park for walks, helping me with my meditations, and, above all, making me aware of the absurdity of my relationship with my then partner, urging me to make the right decision and set myself free. He showed me the real reason why I was still in this relationship: giving away my power. This was a recurring theme in my life, with all the important men I had relationships with, I always gave away my power and let them control me.
That’s how this man changed my life: I started losing
weight, my aches and pains disappeared, and my body came back to life in a way
that I was not expecting or even dreamed of! I am now able to walk fast and
furious, without any effort! But most importantly, I found the strength to tell
my partner that our life as a couple was over. We would stay friends and
continue our dialogues, but we were no longer together and so, we would be free
to live our lives the way we wanted.
I never felt so good in my life! I was free like a bird, and
I had this new friend who made me so happy! I helped him with his projects and
proved to be invaluable to him because of my skills which he badly needed. So,
there is an exchange and we are fulfilling our soul contract.
There is still a lot of work to be done and we are both committed
to keep helping each other, loving each other unconditionally, be there for
each other and, above all, to continue our spiritual journey together.
Thank
you God for sending this man into my life!
Sunday, October 07, 2012
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